Suffering from psychological trauma after PT: does GOD exist?

Billu1

its been 6-7 years of preparation..n this time its gonna be worst...just when i thought that i will make it this year i final list...am out in prelims itself...
mera bhagwaan se vishwas uth chuka hai....lost faith in God's grace...I might become an atheist if i do not clear PT this year...on the other hand if i do make it...( which will be nothing less than a mircale) i might as well become the greatest devotee...
my belief in God has been shaken...not because i am not able to clear prelims this time...but coz of the fact that years of hardwork vl b in vain....people who r much less deserving( am not eulogising myself here...but i know this for a fact) have made it easily..some people get things easily...others after toiling hard...but here i am not gettin at all...this is not justice...

so i question hereby the very existence of God...even if he/she exists...he/she is not omni-benevolent/potent and has set up a mechanical world that he cannot change...jus once...jus once God..if you show your generousness over me...i ll devote my life towards you....if u dont...i might become an atheist ...i ll be a dead man...aimless n finished..this dream is a not jus a dream...my self ego will be hurt...beyond redemption....

kehte hain tum ho daya ke saagar...khaali kyu hain meri gaagar,
jhoome jhuke kabhi na barse...kaise ho tum ghashyaam..kab loge khabar more raam..
sun ke jo behre ban jaoge...aap hi chhaliya kehlaoge,
meri baat bane na bane...ho jaoge tum badnaam..hey raam

deepak verma

God k existence se tumhare pre k pefrmnce ka kya relation hai billu

Duniya me itne evil hain, jab unpe log god k existence ko qsn nahi karte to Tera pre me pass ya fail to non-issue hai

najam sethi

DoctorHouse

Seedha challenge kar do apne god ko

Billu1

God k existence se tumhare pre k pefrmnce ka kya relation hai billu

Duniya me itne evil hain, jab unpe log god k existence ko qsn nahi karte to Tera pre me pass ya fail to non-issue hai

jab aatma dukhi ho...to sawal uthna laazmi hai....its a matter of life and death for me nw...

sandrokottos

God is a creation of our imagination.You will see the majority of people in the world becoming atheists by 2070 acc to most polls.By then technology would be all pervasive and things like religion and spirituality would be gone forever.We are a race that will terraform and colonise planets,use AI and robots to do all our work,Infact even humans will be reduced to some social but virtual web construct wherr we would interact with each other not physically like today.But coming back to the present I feel this is not just u but quite a few ppl who reached Interview and other solid players have got borderline scores.Whereas a few lucky guys have got 120+ although a majority of them are again serious candidates.This new pattern of GS is the reason why a lot of luck is now reqd,3-4 half chances go u r way one is in comfortably or one can be out totally,that is hw small the margin has become.But I think u already knw this since ur experienced so just be rational and let's start our prep fr mains,hua to thik nahi hua to 2016 mein all guns blazing!

ghanta_jet

@Billu1 bhai, aap job lelo koi if result comes opposite to your expectations. saath saath prepare krna ek fresh perspective ke saath.

Sab theek hoga.
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Billu1

@Billu1 bhai, aap job lelo koi if result comes opposite to your expectations. saath saath prepare krna ek fresh perspective ke saath.

Sab theek hoga.
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job ka koi issue nhi h..jindagi to guzar hi jaegi...kutta bhi guzaar leta h...
parr....dil toot k bikharne wala h...

@DrKingSchultz i have nothin left to analyse...except that i faltered in the exam only...one bad day...2 hours...

@sandrokottos no 2016 fr me

Billu1

भगवान भगवान भगवान भगवान
ओ दुनिया के रखवाले
सुन दर्द भरे मेरे नाले

महल उदास और गलियां सुनी चुप-चुप हैं दीवारे
दिल क्या उजड़ा दुनिया उजड़ी, रूठ गयी हैं बहारे
हम जीवन कैसे गुजारें
हो मंदिर गिरता फिर बन जाता दिल को कौन संभाले

ओ दुनिया के रखवाले.........

AngryHulk

I am on same boat with you. God is difficult concept. I feel he exist. He was sitting in front of Arjun yet Arjun was fighting. Atmost what he did was only to give knowledge and motivation. When arjun got only that much who are we.
On the other hand, soul is part of supersoul, he can utilize his own energy. God did not help hitler as he was killing so many people but he is still able fight the whole world beleiving himself.

All in all, Swami Vivekanad said "if you can not beleive yourself, you cannot believe in god" you are losing belief in youself here, how will become devotee of god?
Lets travel the path of self( soul ) to believe in Superrsoul.

Budha said "give up desire". It is one of the reason one suffer. I ask myself can I give up my desires? I may not able to give up even desire to succeed in UPSC, the burden of my Desire is on myself. So if you can not give up desire ( we all first give up on god not desire first ), Swami Vivekanand said "Stand oh Man, don't give untill you get you you sought, no matter what".

The world with temporary existance and imperfect people, how can you expect permanent justice. God may exist and this world still be full of injustice. The burden of our desires are on ourself Billu. Still, I am on same boat with you with same questions.

Billu1

I am on same boat with you. God is difficult concept. I feel he exist. He was sitting in front of Arjun yet Arjun was fighting. Atmost what he did was only to give knowledge and motivation. When arjun got only that much who are we.
On the other hand, soul is part of supersoul, he can utilize his own energy. God did not help hitler as he was killing so many people but he is still able fight the whole world beleiving himself.

All in all, Swami Vivekanad said "if you can not beleive yourself, you cannot believe in god" you are losing belief in youself here, how will become devotee of god?
Lets travel the path of self( soul ) to believe in Superrsoul.

Budha said "give up desire". It is one of the reason one suffer. I ask myself can I give up my desires? I may not able to give up even desire to succeed in UPSC, the burden of my Desire is on myself. So if you can not give up desire ( we all first give up on god not desire first ), Swami Vivekanand said "Stand oh Man, don't give untill you get you you sought, no matter what".

The world with temporary existance and imperfect people, how can you expect permanent justice. God may exist and this world still be full of injustice. The burden of our desires are on ourself Billu. Still, I am on same boat with you with same questions.

vivekanand was himself a atheist till he met paramhansa....sermonising is easy for everyone...for vivekanand too it was easy...